There really weren't that many stairs. I'd run up and down them many times; the carpet threads were worn from years of foot traffic. Climbing to the second floor was nothing I hadn't done before.
Yet my fresh incision and doctors orders told a different story.
I was to take it easy. Scaling the steps in a mad dash was not on my discharge papers. Despite the fact I was so happy to be home, ready to get on with my life and thrive once again cancer-free, I had to take it slow.
Years prior in my stubbornness, I'd not followed the rules after surgery and found myself in a return trip to the hospital. This time I was being careful to not repeat that mistake.
It didn't make the current slow-down any easier.
Frustration grew as I sat comfortably on the couch. Doubt and unbelief came knocking in an instant, working overtime to get me to see the negatives of the situation. The positives were becoming more and more unclear.
Luckily the couch was comfortable and a cup of ice water so graciously served to me reminded me to rest. I accepted my recovering season of Sabbath and trusted I'd be back on my feet in no time.
Sometimes when we're rebounding from hurt and pain, able to look back and see how far we've come, it's tempting to jump back in where we started before things went wrong. We're blind to our pride and distracted by the lies that say this time will be different. But we cannot let ourselves downplay the command to Sabbath and wait for God's direction. We've got to trust that full healing will come, along with vision, clarity and calling. One day we will be running up those stairs again in no time, and they'll be even easier than before.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
If you're hurting or in pain, do you need to slow down and heal? If you've been in a season of Sabbath, are you letting God lead you to what's next or trying to jump start it yourself?